26 January 2007, 11:54 PM : for goodness sake ! this 10th mth was DAMN MEANINGLESS !! writes:
[ okays . this post will be filled with lots of ANGER !! ]it's 26th !! (: though it's 26th , but things jus wasnt right . everything was so wrong .. ): i dunno larhs .. sighh . other school days he can dun care about me , walk away EVEN he sees me , ignore me , dun tak a second look at me , WADEVER ~ i dun care .. but today is 26th !! he jus treated me like someone who's not important .. normal ppl with normal thinkink would noe tht it's 26th and give some special care ;love ;behaviour.. or wadever larhhs .. ): i dunno wad to say larhs .. so , this 10th mth past with no meaning .. not even a memorable one ..
wenttu open np room door when the last period bell bells . lonely , open the door , switch on the lights and fans , sat thr and started thinking negatively . ): he actually wenttu played basketball than come to find me . WTH .. it's 26th larhhs !! aiyarhhs . wadever larhs .. he wanttu do wad , he do larhs . afteral , it stil ended up my fault .. *AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH * i seriously feel like screaming !
supposingly taking the cadets for pt . but i ended up doing the obstacle stuffs . my hands was stil so numb .. it wasnt a nice feeling of grabbin the ropes and pulling them . but it's satisfactory larhs . so , worth it . (: sakinah ,nurul , jiamin was like hitting my butt . lols . and had so much fun running arnd to hit each other's butt . sakinah and nurul palms was POWERFUL ! was so pain larhs . lols . as though i have an iron-made-butt . and tht SHUWEN !! oh my !! i shouted at her , i scolded her , jus bcus she doesnt wanttu clipped up her fringe !! FOR GOODNESS SAKE ! jus a head of hair , she doesnt wanttu listens and showed me attitude . i shouted so loud and scolded her infront of the basketball girls . who cares !! SERVED HER RIGHT ! i didnt vent my anger on her , i mus emphasized , I DIDNT VENT MY ANGER ON HER ! i was in a very good mood when i actually HELPED her to pin her fringe FIRST and im been showed attitude . WTH ! so wadever it is , i dared her to go in the room to tak her bag and GET LOST of my sight . sadly , she couldnt . if she wanttu play with me , GO AHEAD !!
"come on ! get ur those silly gang members down if u wan . during np time , YOU jolly well listens to INSTRUCTIONS ! if it's so hard for u to jus PIN ur tht DAMN fringe up , u might as wel go and tak a pile of shit and splash them on ur face ? frankly speakin , u DONT look good in either with fringe or not . u dared me , I DAREEEEED YOU !! "after training , wenttu the canteen for debrief . and min sun was playing the piano . was so nice larhhs . !! *envy* went for dinner and go home . so boring can this 26th be ? and the worst was he didnt even msg me ANY 10th mth msg !! and today was PASSING SOON !! it gonna be a past !! ): reached home , called him and tok for the pathetic few minutes and i accidentally tripped the phone line . and so , the call was hung . and i called back SEVERAL times , he jus DONT wanttu pick up !! WTH !! as though it's my fault liddat ! wadever i've done today was like AL WRONG in his eyes larhs !! how dumb ! not picking my calls = my fault ? wth .. i gave him over 10+ calls .. 10+ CALLS !! jus having the intention to TOK to him . was it tht hard to jus TOK ON PHONE ?! AHHHHHHHHHH !! after tht , not even a msg from him . tht's the WORST PART !! this meaningless 10th mth . WTF ! and he's going out with his mum tml . and not even have tht INTENTION to go out with me . fuck larhs ! and he's going to fren's bday party and AGAIN , NO INTENTION to even ASK me out !!
fuckfuckfuck larhs !!!!!!!!!!!!
i thot everything had changed .
i thot everything was fine again .
never did i realised tht things are worst !